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WHISPERS TO AND FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT

The Real Me

Dear Lord, If I were to go
to the depths of my being
I would find my “self”
But that self I know
now would be in you.
You are the “I” in who I am.
My journey in life has been
to find the real me according
to the world but the real me
is not in the world but in you.
It is in you that I am true
and complete. There is no sense
of true love in me. There is no
ability to feel the suffering
of the world in me.
There are no great sorrows for
the sin of the world in me.
There is no forgiveness
for the sins of the world in me.
There is no righteousness,
redemption or divine
love in me. My dear Lord
all this and more is only
found in you and
I know in you is
where I will be found.

Dr. Don’s Refection

I know I am not the only one in life that searches out their real “Self”.  All of us want to know who the real “me” is even if we do not know it.  The problem is where and how do we find our “self”. 

I looked everywhere for “me”.  In my family, in my work, in my ministry, in my social life, in my reputation and it was not until I found Christ that I realized who I am is who he is. 

No this was not a falling off of the horse thing like Paul. It was and still is a long journey. But once I found Christ and fully accepted the Holy Spirit I had a travel plan to find who I was made to be.  Again it did not come in a flash but rather a promise that if I followed Christ to the best of my ability I would know who I was.

It was great to know that I had a path to my true  “self” and I knew if I followed it I would be there but I must admit it has been a long hard walk and I am still not there. It could have been much easier but I was the one that made it hard by veering off the path to my true self. From time to time I became sinful by going my way and not the way Christ and the Holy Spirit. Accordingly, I had to put up with much suffering because of my impatience, pride, and sinful ways. 

Despite those detours, the Holy Spirit was always pointing the way to the real me. Along the way, he shared with me that I will find myself in Christ and that to find myself I had to lose myself in him. Really, I had to lose myself to find myself! That did not make sense to me but God’s way is not my way.

It took me a while to get that but once I did, I was OK with it.  At this point, I was fully aware that I would never be who I thought I could be so following Christ must be the way. Nothing else was leading me to “me”. Nothing even close.

I know now that my true “self” is in Christ and the way there has been pointed out by the Holy Spirit.  I am not there yet and I have a way to go but I do know that the real me can only be fulfilled when I die to “self” and come alive in Christ.  In Christ is my true self.

Dr. Don’s Comments

So have you found yourself yet?  Are you looking?  Are you looking in the right places?  The fact of the matter is once we are born we are on a journey to find our “self”.  For our, God has put you on earth to prepare you for heaven.  Heaven is not like Wal-Mart; not everyone gets to go in.

Whether you want to admit it or not, you are looking for who you are. I can tell you from experience, it is not in your work, not in booze, not in sex or looking sexy, not in drugs, not in money, not in your reputation. No, it is not in any of these things or any other things which Satan, the World, or your “Self” will lead you to believe it is.

Who you are is found in God and in God alone. So if you do not know God you will never get to know yourself. Every principle of Godly behavior is based on inner peace and that inner peace is where you find God and yourself.

Three evil tugs do not want you to have that inner peace. They are Satan, the World, and your “Self”.  These are the enemies you fight when you are a Christian Warrior. The battlefield of self-knowledge is where these battles are fought, won, and lost, and for you to win the battle is for you to know God and yourself, and for you to lose the battle is for you never to know either one.

In this Whisper To The Holy Spirit, it is made clear that you will only find yourself in God. In finding yourself in God you find that special feeling you have been seeking. In finding yourself in God you forget who you are and who you want to be and become who he is.

This is the mystery of Christ that is to find yourself you have to lose yourself in Christ.  You do not become who you are you become who he is and in doing so you experience a divine nature that makes clear the identity you were seeking all your life should not have been yours but God’s for in him you shall be.

Losing your identity in God so you can find yours most likely will not happen on this side of heaven but to live eternally you have to work toward it on earth as best you can and if you need to finish it up on the other side so be it. 

Here is the important point of Christ teaching that you must totally understand. It is found in Ephesians 4:22-24

“to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.”

This is our journey, this is our destination.